happy birthday matt

I started this post early this morning.  I typed and typed and typed away - clearly, I just need to unload a lot of thoughts. Just as I was about to post it, I found myself selecting all, and deleted the entire thing... Now, some 10 hours later + a glass of wine or two, I'm back here wanting to try again.

Today's is Matt's birthday.  I miss him.  The whole world misses him.

Zeina recently gave me a card she found while visiting his parents that I wrote to him when I was in the 8th grade.  It's kind of a crazy thing, reading a letter your own little teenage self wrote.

Anyhow, here's the cover of the card I sent to Matt years ago...

I've never been good at talking about knowing matt and losing him.  

I really want to get better at it.